Cute without an E

Going to Korean BBQ after assembly

Group pics

CUTE w/o an E

Reality bites.

Did anyone of you have felt what really a "reality bite" is??

Remember the girl I was talking about? The girl that move to a different city with her family? Well I told her before that I like her and I want to know her more, and I told her that I want to keep my friendship with her and hoping that things will not change. And i told her its ok if you don't like me back.

Her answer?? "why me?? there are a lot of girls who will make you happy." And after that conversation we still chat to each other with no strings attach just like before.

But suddenly this "like thingy" topic was brought out again recently, oh man! this is the second time that i told her that I like her, and my heart was like a drum beat just like the first time! And still her reaction was the same as before.

Well did you feel it??

Pilipino ka, sabihin mo!

Sa ating makabagong panahon lahat ay nagbabago, maging sa pananamit, libangan, kultura, at pati na rin ang ating wika. Nakakalungkot nga lang minsan nakakalimutan na rin natin na tayo ay isang Pilipino. Lalo na dito sa Amerika na kadalasan ng mga kabataang Pilipino ay pinalaki sa kultura ng mga taga kanluran.

Kaya tayo bilang isang Pilipino huwag na huwag natin kalilimutan na tayo ay Pilipino. At pag nangyari na tayo ay makakalimot sa ating pinagmulan, masahol pa tayo sa isang malansang isda.
Kaya bilang handog sa kakatapos na buwan ng wika, ako ay nag paskil ng isang tagalog na sulat dito sa aking blog, upang ipaalam sa mga nakakabasa na ipinagmamalaki ko na ako ay isang PILIPINO!

p.s. medyo nahuli na ang post ko last august pa ang buwan ng wikang pilipino, pero may kasabihan sa wikang tagalog na "Huli man daw at magaling, naihahabol din."

Soundtrip

Recently I'm trying to find the song that touch our hearts, and I remember the old days when I was just an ordinary college student having a sound trip while studying Nursing. And then the song pops up in my mind, Harlem Yu - Qing Fei De Yi the OST from Meteor Garden. :D

Unforgettable speech.

I heard this speech on the Proposal Daisakusen, my most favorite series of all time. Why?? because i can see myself like the leading man in this series, like him i cant really say what i like to say in front of the the girl that i like.

This speech happens in the last part of the series, when her best friend Rei are getting married to another man.

Tada-san, Rei san,
Congratulations on your wedding.
Ever since elementary school, I've been with Rei-san, and we spent most of our school days together.
Yesterday when I opened and looked at our elementary school graduation yearbook, on the column "Your future dream" she had written " I want to be a cute bride".
Well at the moment, Whether she is cute or not... there is a lot of doubt in that...
(Tsuru interrupts: SHE IS REALLY CUTE!!
Reprimanded by Mikio: You're butting in!)
In any case, her wish since she was little came true, as her friend, I really am happy for her.
*loong silence*
I know this is inexcusable towards Tada-san... but...
I have been thinking... that if she could, Rei should give up this wedding.
I've been thinking... I want to take Rei away.
(Tsuru: OI! Your Too drunk!)
For 14 years,
during happy times, during difficult times, during times of suffering,
the one who always spent time with Rei,
the one who would be able to make her happy,
I seriously thought that I am the only one who could do that.
If there are things that did not go well the Rei who would get sulky right away...
if the cleaning and work got sabotaged, the Rei who would get mad,
The Rei who had obstinatly, never been honest with herself,
the one who knows her best is me.
She shows that she is a strong person, but actually she is an extremely sensitive person,
who always puts herself second, who always puts her friends first, the one who washed our uniforms as manager, and the Rei who has skills unparalleled...
who has always just... been beside me...
the one who knows her best is me.
But in the end, these are just thoughts inside my heart,
because not once have I been able to become honest about it in front of her.
Though I always have been near her, the words I thought I would say someday,
I haven't been able to say it after all.
That one thing... never did I say it.
I... I... was in love with Rei.
Honestly, if i say so, even now, I am still in love with Rei...
But, Rei, is getting married to Tada-san today.
Though its excruciating for me, she will get married.
Because her place in my heart is so vast,
the struggle for me to arrive at these words has taken an extreme amount of time.
Rei. Congratulations on your wedding.
Please become happy...
...
If you don't become happy...
If you don't become happy... I really wont forgive that.

:(

You are my target.

Did someone of you have an experience of a sudden rush of fear beginning to eat up your brain, and then you laugh about it because you realize you're only too paranoid?? Well I experienced that earlier when I was in my school in Pasadena.

There was this guy in school, an Arabic guy studying for USMLE step 1 I usually saw him and his girlfriend on my school walking around or studying. Then suddenly he approach me and ask something..

Arabic guy: Where are you from??

Me: I'm from Philippines.

Arabic Guy: You are my target.

Me: *afraid* huh?? what??

Arabic Guy: ahh what i mean you are the right person that I'm looking for to ask about immigration laws, here in the US.

Me: ok..*sigh of relief*

Whew! that guy gave me fright, i thought I'm the new target of an terrorist organization! Im just only paranoid lol!:D

Day 1 without you.

She and her family finally moved to another city. I don't want to say a lot of goodbyes to her because it makes me feel more sad, I don't want to delay my misery anymore. Since we first get along together last 2 months ago, I didn't expect to much, I always think that someday she will leave me. And when her mom told us that they will be moving soon, I felt a little sad, just a little. I learned my lesson well " The more you expect the more you invite hurt and disappointments."

And now shes gone, life must still go on.