Unforgettable speech.

I heard this speech on the Proposal Daisakusen, my most favorite series of all time. Why?? because i can see myself like the leading man in this series, like him i cant really say what i like to say in front of the the girl that i like.

This speech happens in the last part of the series, when her best friend Rei are getting married to another man.

Tada-san, Rei san,
Congratulations on your wedding.
Ever since elementary school, I've been with Rei-san, and we spent most of our school days together.
Yesterday when I opened and looked at our elementary school graduation yearbook, on the column "Your future dream" she had written " I want to be a cute bride".
Well at the moment, Whether she is cute or not... there is a lot of doubt in that...
(Tsuru interrupts: SHE IS REALLY CUTE!!
Reprimanded by Mikio: You're butting in!)
In any case, her wish since she was little came true, as her friend, I really am happy for her.
*loong silence*
I know this is inexcusable towards Tada-san... but...
I have been thinking... that if she could, Rei should give up this wedding.
I've been thinking... I want to take Rei away.
(Tsuru: OI! Your Too drunk!)
For 14 years,
during happy times, during difficult times, during times of suffering,
the one who always spent time with Rei,
the one who would be able to make her happy,
I seriously thought that I am the only one who could do that.
If there are things that did not go well the Rei who would get sulky right away...
if the cleaning and work got sabotaged, the Rei who would get mad,
The Rei who had obstinatly, never been honest with herself,
the one who knows her best is me.
She shows that she is a strong person, but actually she is an extremely sensitive person,
who always puts herself second, who always puts her friends first, the one who washed our uniforms as manager, and the Rei who has skills unparalleled...
who has always just... been beside me...
the one who knows her best is me.
But in the end, these are just thoughts inside my heart,
because not once have I been able to become honest about it in front of her.
Though I always have been near her, the words I thought I would say someday,
I haven't been able to say it after all.
That one thing... never did I say it.
I... I... was in love with Rei.
Honestly, if i say so, even now, I am still in love with Rei...
But, Rei, is getting married to Tada-san today.
Though its excruciating for me, she will get married.
Because her place in my heart is so vast,
the struggle for me to arrive at these words has taken an extreme amount of time.
Rei. Congratulations on your wedding.
Please become happy...
...
If you don't become happy...
If you don't become happy... I really wont forgive that.

:(

You are my target.

Did someone of you have an experience of a sudden rush of fear beginning to eat up your brain, and then you laugh about it because you realize you're only too paranoid?? Well I experienced that earlier when I was in my school in Pasadena.

There was this guy in school, an Arabic guy studying for USMLE step 1 I usually saw him and his girlfriend on my school walking around or studying. Then suddenly he approach me and ask something..

Arabic guy: Where are you from??

Me: I'm from Philippines.

Arabic Guy: You are my target.

Me: *afraid* huh?? what??

Arabic Guy: ahh what i mean you are the right person that I'm looking for to ask about immigration laws, here in the US.

Me: ok..*sigh of relief*

Whew! that guy gave me fright, i thought I'm the new target of an terrorist organization! Im just only paranoid lol!:D

Day 1 without you.

She and her family finally moved to another city. I don't want to say a lot of goodbyes to her because it makes me feel more sad, I don't want to delay my misery anymore. Since we first get along together last 2 months ago, I didn't expect to much, I always think that someday she will leave me. And when her mom told us that they will be moving soon, I felt a little sad, just a little. I learned my lesson well " The more you expect the more you invite hurt and disappointments."

And now shes gone, life must still go on.

Light up the darkness

Bob Marley had this idea. It was kind of a virologist idea. He believed that you could cure racism and hate... literally cure it, by injecting music and love into people's lives. When he was scheduled to perform at a peace rally, a gunman came to his house and shot him down. Two days later he walked out on that stage and sang. When they asked him why - He said, "The people, who were trying to make this world worse... are not taking a day off. How can I? Light up the darkness."

Milky Way

Milky Way

Telescoping is what i do when I am here,
shooting up to the stratosphere and then..
Discovering that I do own the universe,
plus the promise and the curse with it.

In another world, in another place.
Spinning over in my mind,
the universe I find is mine.

I drown inside inside the Milky Way,
which I created in a day.
Turning in my head like yo-yo in a thread.

Everything those spinning cause,
like Venus, Mars with mending force.
Happening in my mind,
just like the force that binds.

Because the universe is mine.

Photon finding is part of all the mystery,
draining out our batteries.
Whats the meaning of all the pains and misery??
choking up our energy's and blood.

In another world, in another place.
Floating like I'm inside
In the ever sea outside is clear.

I dwell inside the Milky Way,
which I created in a day.
Turning in my head yo-yo in thread.

Coz everything the spinning cause,
like Venus, Mars with mending force.
Flowing in my mind just like the force that bind.

Because the universe is mine.

No more searching for answers in outer space,
everything is in a place today.
Quantum leaping happens in the inner brain,
the memories just go insane and pain

In another world, in another place.
playing hidden in those nerves,
is our time, space that curves and bends.

And everything will be fine..

After my ex girlfriend and I broke up 3 years ago I used to tell myself that everything will be fine. But sometimes i keep remembering her whether i like or not, she's just like a pop up virus in computer that keeps on popping even if you close it. I don't know what kind of spell that she gave to me.

But now i finally realized that i don't need her, just like she don't need me when we are still together. And now everything will be fine...:D